…This year will be transformational.
I know, it’s a buzz-word that I was skeptical of in the beginning,
but now I have no other word for it.
This year will be heart and passion.
This year will look like finally living the life I always wanted to live.
This is the year for trying.
Of doing it scared.
Of taking chances and seeking out opportunity –
and where opportunity doesn’t exist, creating it.
This year I will look at life experiences, social justice, and stories
from perspectives other than my own.
Because my worldview has vastly expanded –
I’m not sure where the end-line boundaries are anymore on this life map that I’ve thrown to the wind.
Because this new space feels big and real
and way more rich in love and wonder and exploration than ever before.
This is the year for asking questions. Lots of them.
Questions about people’s life experiences,
the things I don’t understand, the things that move my heart,
the deep questions that unfurl streams of inexplicable beauty.
This is the year to say what I really want to say,
no matter how vulnerable it feels,
and even if doing so might elicit tears… perhaps even more so.
Because I’ve tasted life in authentic community.
Because I’ve seen how much more enjoyable it is when
we collaborate instead of compete.
Because people I’ve known for just a couple weeks have generously and bravely shared parts of themselves with me…
and I won’t take these conversations lightly as I hug these truths, these stories, these gems close in my heart.
Because I’ve been inspired.
As I lay here alone in my room tonight, it’s tempting to start to settle back into some of my old ways, but I come back to the realization that even if this fellowship year were to suddenly end tomorrow, it will have been nothing short of transformational.
But it’s not going to suddenly end. In fact, with just two weeks in,
it really, really is just beginning.
And when those final weeks close in, I know we’ll say, “Hellooooo fellows,”
gather ’round the table one last time in solidarity
and exchange stories we can only dream about now.
It will be amazing.
But until then, we have work to do.
And I’m so grateful to do it alongside folks amazing as you.
See you in Rwanda…
with a soccer ball.
